made in jordan

ya3ni i get out of my car, see this right infront of my face, d-ring road / doha/qatar.

why why tell me why

points of weakness and strength??

well in this case, its all points of weakness.. i dont see where the points of strength are “strengthenning” anyone.

im so sad, frustrated…

i go down the streets: yeah.. well it seems as if the biggest event now is a small earthquake in the far east, not war on lebanon..

when i think about it my head gets too noisy, how come such huge events are happenning with so little attention??

ok isreal attacks? not surprising. but for how long will we just “wait”, and i dont say ” watch”, no we r waiting, waiting in line.

ok.. any comment? well many countries had at least a comment on this, we cant even have a comment??

i remember the first time i went to lebanon, those old buildings distroyed by war and still standing looked so painfull to me, although i have never experienced war, what would it be like for those who did.

i was more or less proud, and happy they managed to do something and come out after all that distruction, and yesterday i had this pain again.

the pain of our silence, it eats me up inside.

this attitude.

when i meet arabic people of different nationalities i feel some kind of a ” smile of the soul” i think: how beautiful it would be if we all had more events to share. we have some kind of connection. then thinking abit of how torn, how full of complications we are, i couldnt even think of the over-all situation since every one country has so many complications its difficult to see a whole clear picture, u end up with headache.

now that sounds dreamy ha? away from reality, well maybe reality is so ugly im starting to daydream?

yes this is ugly. all of it. and no matter how complicated politics might seem, at the end of the day, people who may not even know enough about it end up in graves, if they were lucky to get any.

why is something so obvious and so clear for everyone to understand gets ignored? and crazy unfair things… yes they also get ignored.. this “i couldnt care less” attitude… these accumilations over the years.. did we just learn to live with them, die with them, how worthless can life be?

NOT YET (PART1)

I can’t read long posts, neither can I write them, so this goes in parts.

I went to visit my friend Tas, and there I had the chance to meet this girl who, right after having introduced myself to her, asked me the usual annoying question:

-what’s your horoscope??

And I answered with my usual annoying answer:

-Capricorn, but I don’t believe in these things at all.

She was like: sure you don’t, you’re a Capricorn, you want a reasonable explanation for everything, and can’t settle for things till they make sense, at least for you, but I’m not telling u I know your future, I just say u might have some things in your personality.

I smiled and thought: “oh god, here we go again”. I usually just leave gatherings with such conversations as I felt they were a waste of time, I thought yeah maybe a person is born with some characteristics, but I wasn’t convinced its related to the birthday, nor it is comparable to the amount of shaping you get to your personality through life, people, the experiences, and how you react to them. These add a great deal to your personality and mold (or even change) those things you might have been born with.

So, instead of saying all that, or leaving for a drink while they finish the “horoscope” discussion, I said: ok look, its true sometimes people tend to believe what they want to believe, and don’t believe what they don’t want to believe, so you say what you’ve got while I keep my mouth shut, and let Tas- my best friend of 8 years- judge.

Content with having me aside and going for a neutral judge, the girl started talking,  confidently, not about events, but deep things about personality, Tas started laughing: oh god! 3an jd lama is so like that!!

She went on for like 45 minutes, and was 99% correct, she did one tiny mistake about the personality, in addition to saying 2006 is going to be a very good year for me, at that time we were past a third and it seemed ugly!! LOL!!

Not having given up, I thought: maybe they told her about me in advance?? So I asked her what a woman who is bla bla bla birthday would be like and what her relationship with me would be like (I chose someone I knew well enough, my mother) and I hate to admit it but lets just say she was as correct about her as she was about me.

Well that conversation was over. But in my head it wasn’t.

                                                                                                   (To be continued)

PLZ NOT HERE AGAIN!

I ended up having to stand outside in the sun (and you all who’ve been to the gulf know how bad that is) for 2 minutes every one hour till 11am, Everyday. I was standing there and thinking: OK NOW I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENNING.

I remembered that day when I was packing in Amman to come here, took all the light clothes and smiled looking at my jackets: I won’t be needing those alright!! So I took the lightest jeans jacket for no reason at all.

I’ve always had this “it’s cold for me” problem, back in school, in uni, at work, in a café, restaurant, car… wherever. I’ve always been sitting as close as possible to the radiator and as far as possible from the A/C. what’s hot for most people is just warm for me, what’s a bit cold for them is deadly freezing for me, and so on. I’m the first to put a jacket on in autumn and the last to take it off in spring. I’ve heard many comments like: (lol lama u look like a bear from the North Pole! And you’re still freezing!!)(ya 7aram can i get you something??)

I remember that terrified look on my teacher’s face in high school when she yelled angrily: (Lamaaaaaaaaaaa you’re blue get out of the pool! Get out! Now!!)

At the office where I used to work in Amman, sitting right next to the radiator as usual, I used to be wearing very warm clothes, having something hot to drink, and still shivering and feeling so cold that I couldn’t work, at some point they stopped joking about it and started pilling jackets over me! It wasn’t that funny after all ha? Well at least not for me! Just till noons then I get better, I guess my body wakes up 4 hours after my brain!!

Now here it’s like: Too hot! Too cold! Too hot! Too cold! I was sick although I rarely am, and feeling cold in the office in the mornings!! (In Qatar for god’s sake!) And even when I started wearing a light jacket (again: in Qatar for god’s sake!) didn’t work… And now I have to stand out every once in a while… in a weather where u would get fog on your sunglasses, and still can’t take them off since the sun is shines so hard you can hardly open your eyes!

WATCH N LEARN

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN U PLAY BOWLING AFTER 4 MONTHS OF NOT PLAYING!

* and by the way, the only reason i got only one strike in 2 rounds is bcoz of this injury!! LOL!!

* oh and by the other way! i did not injure myself playing bowling! i just have these plasters for… uhmmmmm…. immitating michael jackson??!!